Happy New Year!

~~~~~

Should auld acquaintance be forgot

and never brought to mind?

Should auld acquaintance be forgot

and days of auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear,

for auld lang syne,

we'll take a cup of kindness yet,

for auld lang syne.

~~~~~

Harbingers of happiness, awake!
And dreams abandoned, return from restless sleep!
Past hopes, whom bitter wanderers forsake,
Promise once again what will might reap!
Years turn and turn, at each new turn reborn,
New imagined by redeemers new,
Each in turn vouchsafed a festive dawn,
Wind driven towards a sky of darker hue.
Yearning is of innocence a cause,
Embracing with delight what ought to be,
As once a year even truth takes pause,
Reflecting on what other eyes might see.

An unusual poem for Happy New Year.

For Auld Lang Syne.. 

"Remember no man is a failure who has friends."
-It's A Wonderful Life (1946)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Who's there?

Aisehmen. Sapakan tu? Btw balikan aku ani ah:

Tea Tree Bodywash.

White Musk Sumptuous Silk Shower Gel

Aku punya abis sudah. Lupa ku bali. Pfffft. Kalau inda jangan kau balik. Ku buat banner arah custom atu, namamu yg ko bawa barang2 prohibited. Biar kana tahan.

Wedding and realization.

My brother's wedding ceremony was last night. I felt terribly bored. Pfft, not surprising, since I'd always find myself to be suicidal in an event that doesn't involve xbox. Seriously, I felt like I was gonna throw myself on the road and let cars hit me. Usually when I'm at function like this, Macchu would always be at home, and we'll talk via MSN, him on his laptop, me on my phone. But last night, he was.. not available. Not to mention, Mali and I were on a bad term. Still are, actually. Disaster!

On our way to Jame' Asr Hassanal Bolkiah Mosque, where my brother's wedding was taken place at, we stopped by at gas station in Tutong. Guess what.... I saw Dixie's car! I was elated beyond words, and the very first thing on my mind was..... screaming to Macchu. Then I remembered, again, that he's not at home. *sigh

Then when my brother's gifts (Hantaran) from his wife, there's a big ALIENWARE box! I was entranced. I wanted to jump up and down, but I knew I had to control myself. I, for the second time now, wanted to scream at Macchu, which, for the second time, was not available. I thought about calling Mali, and again, we're not speaking. Pfft.

Then it hit me that I don't have other friends to talk to, when I'm joyous, or sad, or angry, other than Macchu and Mali. How did my world become so small?

Oh yeah, because I had severed all ties with my friends, because they don't genuinely care. At least that's what I thought. I know I don't. Boo! I'd been content living in solitude.

And with actually being in the ceremony, I realized that I don't see myself introducing anyone to my family anytime soon. Sure I see bringing Macchu, but he's a family, in a way. And perhaps Mali, as a friend. Never boyfriend.

Because the only guy I would bring, is the guy my brother does not approve of.

BOOOO!

I will never be able to forget him, will I?

Bastard. I hate you for having this kind of power over myself. Because of you, I lied to myself, every single day, that I'm not ready for commitments because I liked being single, when in all honesty, I feared that it will end up tearing me viciously apart, like you did. I hate you.

Macchu and Braveheart with dragons.

.... 10.30PM

A6. says:

OMG! hyeee~

A6. just sent you a nudge.

A6. says:

oi

nes. says:
HAIIIIIII
OMG
A6. says:

OMG

nes. says:
hahaha
A6. says:

OMGOMGOMG

hahhaahhahaha

nes. says:
pastu di nudge. pastu, oi.
A6. says:

gila aku baru bangun tu kau msg aku.

nes. says:
hahaha
A6. says:

hahahahha

(hahahahaha OMG!)

....10.25PM

A6. says:

anyway, aku deactivate fb sudah.

nes. said (10:26 PM):
kenapa?
A6. says:

deactivate lah, aku bah kan belayar.

hahahah.

nes. says:
eh sapa balikan kau baju tu?
fb ah?
A6. says:

abgku.

ia ke bandung.

nes. says:
aku mau
A6. says:

nada. satu saja.

aku mau jua rasa disana sekali.

nes. says:
i've been there
booooooo
A6. says:
setaie ni eh t-boo boo.
nes. says:
2 hari before tsunami masa 2412.
boo. < mali tu awal2
A6. says:

ahahaha

siok di sana?

nes. says:
inda brapa
A6. says:

inda tah ku jadi. aku ke bangkok saja.

nes. says:
ikut
A6. says:

ikut tah. haha

(boooo sakit hati!)

....10.45PM

nes. says:
i'm back
A6. says:

sup bro

haha

nes. says:
sup
apa kan tu?
A6. says:

wassup

nes. says:
apa tu?
A6. says:

whats up

nes. says:
atu apa tu?
A6. says:

apakan

nes. says:
whats up atu bah
apa tah tu?
A6. says:

setaie eh

nes. says:
proper answernya apatah tu?
hahahahahahaha
A6. says:

baie

(sup bro? hahahahaha)

....11.45PM

A6. says:

aku kan buka facebook skajap eh

hahahah

nes. says:
boo inda tahan
A6. says:

sekajap saja

nes. says:
boo
A6. says:

boo!@

nes. says:
boo!@#
hahahahahaha

(Jaditah ko buka? booo!)

.... 12.00 AM

nes. says:
ko pernah liat cerita braveheart?
A6. says:

pernah kali

yg ada dragon atu kah

nes. says:
cuba ko google
-_-
A6. says:

hahahaha

jap

inda ku pernah liat tu

tapi mcm pernah

nes. says:
siuk tu
love it
A6. says:

pasal apa

nes. says:
pasal ia scottish & mel gibson HAHAHAHAHA
oi aku off pukul 1240 ah
A6. says:

hahaha apakanz.

aight.

(Yg ada dragon ah........ Pacah.....)

.... 12.15 AM

nes. says:
abgku nikah di masjid yg dakat mall tu
jame asri
A6. says:

siok tu

nes. says:
dpt bgambar kah tu?
A6. says:

aku pernah sana.

dapat

nes. says:
brijap tuu
A6. says:

apa yg brijapnya

haha

nes. says:
arah tempat bewudhu bini2
sunyi
mun ada serial killer, mati sudah ku tu
urg sembahyang, aku teriak. inda jua durang ingau tu
khusyuk sudah
A6. says:

hahahaha mijin

("awu. LOL.." HAHAHAHAH babiiis. Aku lupa yg ani, mijin lagi kalau aku kana tarik dapan urg sembahyang.. Bedarah2 lah. Kali pulis tanya, "teliat kita ni?" durang jawap, "inda, aku sembahyang.." hahahaha khusyuk banar..)

.... 12.25 AM

nes. says:
ehhh
nanti aku mau jalan around the world
aku mau gambar2, pastu simpan dalam blog..
kira cam aku jalan ke singapore, aku describe apa yg ada disana.. bla bla bla..
siuk tu..
A6. says:

aku join.

nes. says:
ko jadi cameraman
A6. says:

manasaja.

dream city mu dimana
nes. says:
nada dmana2.
we're gonna travel blindly
go to tourist attractions
you do your job, i do mine
A6. says:

sofia bulgaria!

stephen avenue.

macchu picchu.

nes. says:
macam journalist lah
A6. says:

yes

siok tu

nes. says:
cute oh, macchu picchu
cute namanya
A6. says:

awu cute hahaha

nes. says:
ko bawa cameramu, aku bawa bukuku
siukkkkk
A6. says:

siooooook

damn

aku mau tu

nes. says:
aku pun
start yg murah lah dulu
jgn tarus2 ke US
ke sabah, sarawak, KL, singapore
eh salah
singapore, KL, thailand, philippines
simpan gambar arah blog, buat advert.
pastu sudah ramai urg click advert, tani kaya, barutah jalan tempat yg mahal
A6. says:

siooooook

damn

nes. says:
i knooow
A6. says:

baru travelling

nes. says:
tapi kalau tani keraja, paksa tah minta cuti tu eh
A6. says:

awu minta cuti lah tu

nes. says:
one week one country
mun gaji tani basar lah tu jua
one week is a long period
mana lagi bayar hotel, makan, transport
jgntah shopping. bali souvenir sdikit saja
A6. says:

awuuu

mun aku souvenir tu janji ada saja.

janji ada brg yg tani pernah kesana atu

nes. says:
souvenir yg tani pernah kesana lah
awu hahaha
A6. says:

awu
hahahahha

nes. says:
great minds think alike.
eseh
hahahaha
A6. says:

hahahahah

sudah atu

nes. says:
mana lagi bayar tampat masuk tu. ish mun banyak usin..
A6. says:

pndai pndai save duit lah

singapore lah first place tani aga.

nightlife sana is pretty awesome!

aku mun di singapore, tidur aher.

aku tidur pukul 5.

jalan jalan saja sana.

jalan kaki.

nes. says:
sendiri ko jalan kaki
hahahaha
tani bawa myzah, tapi tani jalan buat kraja, ia biar tinggal di hotel
pagi - patang myzah tinggal hotel. malam, ko usai gambar arah laptop, aku buat blog. myzah clubbing sampai pagi.
tiap2 hari tah catu
hahahaha
A6. says:

hahahahhahaha

sandi!

aku malam malam jalan eh

nes. says:
exhausted tu eh
A6. says:

inda ku kira.

rugi kali ah tidur awal

nes. says:
balik kebrunei, ampar dua hari inda bangun2. urg tanya, kenapa. ehhh pasal durang time disingapore inda betidur. 4 hari straight.
A6. says:

hahahaha

gila tu eh

nes. says:
si myzah sakit, tani ampar
kenapa si myzah sakit? pasal durang dua suruh ia clubbing sampai pagi, pagi baru tidur
A6. says:

hahahahah

sandi

nes. says:
hahaha
inda menjadi trip durang
hahahahaha
A6. says:

aku inda tidur tu pagi. kul 5 baru tidur sampai kul 10.

lpas atu jalan lagi.

nes. says:
sunrise rugged jua
rugi ko
A6. says:

awu

eh

inda

biasa sudah

sunset yg rugged

nes. says:
tapi kalau tanii tinggal hotel, atas bangunan, lawa
aku slalu liat arah movie
A6. says:

awuu

rooftop

nes. says:
tapi blog tani lain dari yg lain
pasal tourist slalu utamakan tempat2 mcm attraction, tani utamakan yg inda famous lah
mcm kedai damit2, apa yg special dsana
A6. says:

awuuu.

mcm kdai lama.

kdai yg famous among singaporean lah

bukan kdai yg famous among tourists.

nes. says:
awu
see, great minds.
tapi more like aku lah
aku kan tidur wah
esok aku jalan wah..
A6. says:

hahahahhahaahaha

tadi kau kan off kul 1240

(Yatah kan.. Sadar pun.. Aku kan tidur pukul 1240.. Tani dua aniii.. Mun angan2, inda ingat jam. Angan-angan is our favorite pastime. HAHA! We are fighting dreamers! Yeoh lagu naruto. Cuba ko google. Lawa tu lagunya.)

.... 01.30AM

nes. says:
aku save ni, aku buat arah blog.
hahaha
A6. says:

bah off taah.

buat laah

siok tu ah

damn!

nes. says:
awu
esok sambung
bah
A6. says:

insyallah esok mun ku masih di brunei

hahahhaa

(Kan memajal tu yaa.. Kan memajal tuu.. Mun dilayan, sampai pukul 3 tu krg..)

Yatah keraja kami ni every night. Angan-angan saja. Kuat angan-angan.

Macchu Picchu atu, cali ah. Macam memajal bunyinya kan mau cute atu. Sudah tah Macchu, Picchu lagi. Banarnya namanya ani Masu Pisu kali. Tapi inda lawa.. Yatah ia mau cute. Macchu Picchu lah. Yatah from now on, aku panggil si arip, the Ret Macchu. Pasal kadang2 ia cematu. Mau kana ucap cute. Boo. Macamtah urg inda sadar. Boo!! Kalau kan offline, inda buleh cakap "Bah." Mun cakap "bah", ertinya 3 jam delay tu. Selalu tu catu. Pukul 12, "bah off ku dulu." Tapi offnya pukul 3.

It's an Orange world.

It is I, who see the sun with orange beams.

It is I, who give an orange silhouette.

It is I, who live under orange skies.

It is I, who swim the orange ocean.

It is I, who walk on orange grass.

It is I, who soak with orange raindrops.

It is I, who breathe the orange breath.

It is I, who cries orange tears.

It is I, who bleed orange blood.

 

It is I, who see the world with no other color,

but orange.

Imagination is important.

Si a6statik:

"anyway, masa kemarin, aku text si orangesilhouette.. ia inda mereply lagi tu. inda ku tau kenapa. main game kali ia. karak game. ikat tia console xbox mu atu arah kepalamu. tv atu kau sikut. klau kau jalan ke mana-mana kau sikut sja tv sama xbox mu atu. klau time bjalan atu nada papa mcm kau keboringan, kau cari saja plug di kadai. pasang sana. extension plug jgn lupa bawa. kalau mau ada feel lagi. kau bawa saja speaker. 4 buting speaker tu, kiri kanan di dapan. kiri kanan di blakang mu. kira surrounds sound laaah tu. duduk tah kau tu disana, urang sibuk sibuk melintas. chill le tu~"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH SAKIT HATI!

Ani baru number dua si mali.. Ani lagi teruk lah.. Imagine ku tu. Xbox atas kepala, TV di belakang. Hahaha! Macam maskot xbox. Damn hahaha! Aku gtau si mali pasal ani, kali basar ketawanya. katanya, "awueh awueh, banar tu." HAHAHA! Aku busy haritu, usai barang urg kan kawin. Sudah ku kan text kau, inda tia ko ada. Kali lah.. Yatah malas ku text. Kau jua kata ko kan tidur awal.. Hahaha! Before ko jalan saja tani chat ah. on 28. Buleh? Btw baju atu, baju mu kah? Bagi tia aku. Ada saiz S? Extra S? Extra Extra S? Me likey!

Bah I miss you too. Hahahahahaha mati eh.....

Warmness on the ears.

Beautiful. I can listen to this whole day.

I've always wanted to play this ever since Dang Arip introduced the song, but my fingers aren't smooth enough. I'm still playing some Classical tunes, not Pachebel or Schubert, and certainly not Mozart or Bach! Hell if I can play their pieces, that would mean that I could play almost every songs. Their pieces are the last thing I want to learn. Pergh!



For the mate's eyes only:

Poker arah Red Dead Redemption. Sorry for the quality. Dari tv tu yo.

Nothing is true, everything is permitted.

 

"Nothing is true. Everything is permitted."

Ezio Auditore.

Si a6statik

HAHAHAHA blog ani jadi tempat message sudah. Arah stats tempat dashboard blog ku mengatakan visitor dari Brunei inda ramai. Visitor dari Singapore sama US saja. So durang inda paham cakap berunai. Kawanku yg beblog pun inda wujud sudah blog durang. Inda ku tau lagi siapa membaca blog ku ani kecuali kau. Kau stalker. HAHAHAHHAHAAH. Yeoh, sikit ketawa, pakai caps. Melampau. Inda lagi batah abgku kawin ehhh. Nervous ku. Out. Kan cari "kawan" baru ku eh. Boring sudah si mali. Jahat. Aku mau cari urg yg appreciate cerita lama2, lagu lama2. Antik kali ah. Siuk jua liat cerita lama. Pfft. Aku kan bali game baru. Kau gtau sal Singularity hari tu. Yatah asal ku ke kadai, malar ku liat. Tapi inda ku bali. Cam boring. Adiku lagi majal. "Boring tu karang. Inda bemain tu. Baik bali game ani. Siuk ni, aku tau kaka suka ni." Ia bagi game, suruh aku bayar. Sudah di rumah, nada ada siuknya. Sucker. Aku slalu kana tipu. Controller xbox lagi kan mati tu. Nazak sudah. Kan bali controller xbox baru ku eh. Yg Modern Warfare punya. Rugged tu, transparent sama warna hijau. Eh btw, aku liatkan mamaku gambar alienware kan.. Kali mamaku kata, "bida, macam begulambir. Gulambir belampung2." Sayang ku mamaku atu, banar... Kau inda main camera kah lagi? Cam nada yg baru arah gambarmu. Gambar saja alam semulajadi ah. janji ada. Flora dan fauna. hahaha bide. Bah, I leave you with an awesome song by Marty Robbins, Billy The Kid.

Gile aku suka berabis.Banci ku Pat Garrett atu.

Billy The Kid - Marty Robbins

I'll sing you a true song of Billy the Kid
I'll sing of some desperate deeds that he did
Way out in New Mexico long long ago
When a man's only chance was his own forty-four.
When Billy the Kid was a very young lad
In old Silver City he went to the bad
Way out in the West with a gun in his hand
At the age of twelve years he did kill his first man.

There's Mexican maidens play guitars and sing
Songs about Billy, their boy bandit king
Ere his young manhood has reached his sad end
With a notch an his pistol for twenty one men!
Was on a sad night when poor Billy died
He said to his friend, "I'm not satisfied
There's twenty one men I have put bullets through
Sheriff Pat Garrett must make twenty two!"

I'll sing you how Billy the Kid met his fate
The bright moon was shinin', the hour was late
Shot down by Pat Garrett who once was his friend
The young outlaw's life is now come to an end.
There's many a man with a face fine and fair
Who start out in life with a chance to be square
Just like poor Billy they wander astray
They'll lose their lives in the very same way!

 

Blaze of Glory - Jon Bon Jovi

Epic~ aku majal ni sampai kau kata lawa. hahaha! 

Pukul 1 AM.

Kau: Bah aku off. kan tidur ku.

Aku: Awal jua..?

Kau: Awu esok aku kan bla bla bla bla bla bla....

Aku: Oh, bhapa? Kenapa? Bla bla bla bla..

Pukul 4 AM.

Kau: Ngantuk ku.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH selaluuuuuuuuuuuuu

I didn't know that!

Islam amat menggalakan sifat kasih sayang dan hormat-menghormati di dalam semua aspek kebaikan sesama manusia, sekalipun fahaman atau anutan mereka adalah berbeza. Walau bagaimanapun, Islam tetap meletakkan had dan sempadan apabila sesuatu perkara itu menjejaskan akidah penganutnya. Seperti yang telah disentuh di atas, sambutan Krismas adalah satu bentuk salah-faham dalam agama Kristian daripada 3 segi:
1. Mengikut buku Istilah Agama Kristian, Bahasa Inggeris – Bahasa Malaysia mengatakan yang sambutan Krismas adalah sambutan ‘hari lahir Tuhan Yesus’. Jadi ini sama sekali bertentangan dengan aqidah Islamiah yang meyakini Allah itu Esa dan tidak berbilang.

2. Tarikh 25hb Disember bukanlah tarikh kelahiran Nabi Isa a.s. yang sebenar.

3. Tarikh 25hb Disember sebenarnya adalah sambutan kelahiran dewa matahari bagi orang-orang Romawi kuno, jadi sambutan itu adalah sebuah perayaan kabatilan.

Sambutan Krismas adalah sambutan syirik orang-orang Kristian menyambut kelahiran tuhan mereka ke dunia yang dipanggil dalam bahasa Ibrani sebagai “Immanuel” (“Tuhan menyertai kita”). Oleh sebab itu, Islam tidak membenarkan sama sekali umatnya untuk terlibat serta dalam apa juga bentuk sambutan hari Krismas, sama ada secara langsung ataupun tidak langsung walaupun hanya dengan mengatakan, “Happy Christmas” atau “Merry Christmas” sekalipun.

Oleh itu, hukum menyambut Krismas dalam apa bentuk sekalipun adalah haram dan ditakuti boleh membawa kepada syirik. Umat Islam tidak dibenarkan untuk tolong-menolong dalam melakukan ketidaktaatan kepada Allah s.w.t, seperti Firmannya:

“Dan tolong-menolonglah kamu dalam (mengerjakan) kebajikan dan takwa, dan jangan tolong-menolong dalam berbuat dosa dan pelanggaran.” (Qur’an 5:2)

Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. dalam satu hadisnya mengingatkan kita tentang meniru atau menyerupai ajaran sesuatu kaum yang lain, sabdanya,

“Barangsiapa menyerupai sesuatu kaum maka ia akan dibangkitkan bersama kaum itu.” (riwayat Abu Daud)

Maka dibimbangi jika ada di antara kita yang terlibat sama dengan penganut agama Kristian dalam menyambut Krismas, maka di akhirat nanti kita akan dibangkitkan bersama dengan mereka, wa nau’zubillah.

 

Well fuck me 10 ways til Sunday, I have no idea..

Loyalty is endangered (Billy The Kid)

This game has been sitting in my room for God knows how long. I don't even remember owning it. I bought it because I love the title.

Then I started playing Fallout: New Vegas. Of course, you are not a legitimate Fallout addict, if you don't Google the soundtrack. I fell in love with Marty Robbin song, Big Iron. Then I started to listen to his other songs. Then I got hooked with cowboys. So I Googled it.

All hell broke loose.

I accidentally read about Billy The Kid, and now, I am beyond hooked. So I dug out Red Dead Redemption. What I did? Shooting rabbits and whores, pretending to be Billy.

(CAUTION!: This video contains super awesome graphics and only people with higher level of awesomeness can watch it. If your awesome level is still novice, please don't click. I will not be responsible for your death.)

Emilio Estevez was awesome! He's cute as Billy. Every time he's in a situation where a normal person should be mortified, he laughed. His aim was insanely accurate. And he's loyal to his death, a pretty endangered trait nowadays if you ask me. Or rather the word 'loyal' is just ain't the same anymore. See, you hurt a single hair on his friend, he'd put a bullet in your brain. He didn't care if doing so would make him a wanted man, he just want to avenge his friend. He didn't care if the said friend called him a freak either. He's just loyal, the word "pals" means everything to him.

How I wish we're still living in that era. Cripple someone and nail them to a tree to be a coyote's snack sounds mighty fun! In fact, in this very moment, I have someone in mind. Serve her right.

But of course we're in the world of black is not really black and orange is sometimes a faint red. Despite his unconditional and never-ending loyalty, ultimately, he's killed by one of his own friend. He could have kill that so-called friend. For God's sake he's killed 21 men by the age of 21. But like I mentioned earlier, he's loyal and that had became his undoing. Perhaps if he didn't care so much about that friend, he would have lived much longer.

 

"Ain't easy having pals"

Peggy Lee and Skate 3

 

This woman is a definition of CLASSY!

I pity those guys who think flailing boobs are sexy. Seriously.

Now.. What am I up to?

I solemnly swear that I bought this game because I love skate, absolutely nothing to do with certain guy.

Oh who am I kidding.. I bought it so I can create a face JUST LIKE him and dress like him, and of course, name after him. Bwahahahaah!

However, even with a controller, my imaginary skate guy wasn't skating. It's more like he's attempting suicide. I'm having fun making him do these ridiculous tricks, and then just let him fall. Head first, if you will.

Like this. I feel good.

Really, creepily, sickeningly good.. (Put Joker's smile here)

Songs I want the mate to listen.

Heartache By The Number - Guy Mitchell



Heartaches by the number
Troubles by the score
Everyday you love me less
Each day I love you more
Yes, I've got heartaches by the number
A love that I can't win
But the day that I stop counting
That's the day my world will end

Heartache number one was when you left me
I never knew that I could hurt this way
And heartache number two
Was when you *come* back again
You came back but never meant to stay

Yes, I've got
Heartaches by the number
Troubles by the score
Everyday you love me less
Each day I love you more
Yes, I've got heartaches by the number
A love that I can't win
But the day that I stop counting
That's the day my world will end

Heartache number three
was when you called me
And said that you were comin' back to stay
With hopeful heart
I waited for your knock on the door
I waited but you must have lost your way

Yes, I've got
Heartaches by the number
Troubles by the score
Everyday you love me less
Each day I love you more
Yes, I've got heartaches by the number
A love that I can't win
But the day that I stop counting
That's the day my world will end

Marty Robbins - Big Iron



To the town of Agua Fria rode a stranger one fine day
Hardly spoke to folks around him didn't have too much to say
No one dared to ask his business no one dared to make a slip
for the stranger there among them had a big iron on his hip
Big iron on his hip

It was early in the morning when he rode into the town
He came riding from the south side slowly lookin' all around
He's an outlaw loose and running came the whisper from each lip
And he's here to do some business with the big iron on his hip
big iron on his hip

In this town there lived an outlaw by the name of Texas Red
Many men had tried to take him and that many men were dead
He was vicious and a killer though a youth of twenty four
And the notches on his pistol numbered one an nineteen more
One and nineteen more

Now the stranger started talking made it plain to folks around
Was an Arizona ranger wouldn't be too long in town
He came here to take an outlaw back alive or maybe dead
And he said it didn't matter he was after Texas Red
After Texas Red

Wasn't long before the story was relayed to Texas Red
But the outlaw didn't worry men that tried before were dead
Twenty men had tried to take him twenty men had made a slip
Twenty one would be the ranger with the big iron on his hip
Big iron on his hip

The morning passed so quickly it was time for them to meet
It was twenty past eleven when they walked out in the street
Folks were watching from the windows every-body held their breath
They knew this handsome ranger was about to meet his death
About to meet his death

There was forty feet between them when they stopped to make their play
And the swiftness of the ranger is still talked about today
Texas Red had not cleared leather fore a bullet fairly ripped
And the ranger's aim was deadly with the big iron on his hip
Big iron on his hip

It was over in a moment and the folks had gathered round
There before them lay the body of the outlaw on the ground
Oh he might have went on living but he made one fatal slip
When he tried to match the ranger with the big iron on his hip
Big iron on his hip

YEEEHAW!

Ke hadapan Arif Hj Yahya, 


Ret, cuba kau tolong downloadkan lagu Marty Robbins sama Guy Mitchell tu. Inda ku dapat. Inda ku pandai kali HAHAHAHAH! Dangar tu reeeeeeeeeeeeet. Pleaseeeee. Atu cuba kau liat Marty Robbins time ia hidup. Inda pulang ku tau ia mati kah alum, tapi aku rasa sudah lah. Time cowboy, confirm lah tu. Ia nyanyi Big iron atu. Gila suaranya. (Y) Aku sukaaaa. Aku inda suka cowboy before tapi ani aku suka sudah. Kenapa Youtube inda dapat embed lagi? Laptop adiku kali.. Buruk eh. Mun Alienware, dapat wah ni. :(

I want Alienware so bad sampai temimpi2.. Eseh kimax. Nada wah. Aku online skajap2 saja pakai laptop adiku. Ia kan dating saja. Arah statusnya selalu tu "ily __(nama girlnya)__ so forever much" Tiap2 hari. Dulu urg buat catu, diucapnya. Dulu2 statusnya inda wah catu tu. Rugged2 statusnya ngucap urg. Ani saja catu. Mihir2 sudah. Aku inda pulang pernah. Aluuum ku kan buat catu. Kau pernah tu. Bide. Soft sudah. Gay. Mihir macam rambut bieber.

Sekian, 
Nes the Red mate. RHYME! Buleh sudah aku jadi eminem.

Is she..?

Boy: Okay, we need to talk. Let's settle this, once and for all.
Girl: Okay.
Boy: What is it that you want from me?
Girl: I want you to ___(girl's wants)____
Boy: That's hardly fair. I can't __(refuse girl's demands)__
Girl: Why?
Boy: Because __(give ample reasons to disagree)__
Girl: But you told me to __(frown upon the reasons)__
Boy: Yeah but __(try reasoning)__
Girl: You got points there. Hmm.. Okay, I'll try.
Boy: One other thing, I don't like you do __(point girl's behaviour)__
Girl: Why? It isn't like __(girl's defense)__
Boy: Yeah it make me feels like __(boy's feeling)__
Girl: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel that way.. Okay I'll think about it.
Boy: I love you.
Girl: I..
Boy: It's okay, you don't have to say it back. I just want you to know that..
Girl: I'm not saying I won't.. I like you but..
Boy: I know, I understand. I'll be here whenever you're ready.
Girl: Thank you.

SEE? IS THAT SO HARD TO COMMUNICATE? 

If you can think of thousands of excuses to avoid speaking about your true feelings, why not think of one reason why you should? If you like the boy, why the secrets? It wasn't like he want to know your bra size. He deserves to know everything there is to know, especially if it affects him somehow.

If you no longer want the boy, why spit millions of venomous words to hurt him, when you can think of one word to tell him? Just tell him, save the time and headache.

Contrariwise, if you really want to be with the boy, you should fight tooth and nail for him. Doesn't matter what others say, you will not let the boy go. You should make him see that you're worth the trouble.

Question is, are you worth the trouble?

Is she worth the heart aches?

FO: New Vegas & COD: Black Ops

Hey kiddie kiddie! I'm here. Now I've finished Fallout: New Vegas and Call Of Duty: Black Ops, so I wanted to share my thoughts. Spoiler alert!

Tips:

Siding with Legion would require you to destroy Mr. House's bunker in the Fortification Hill (Legion's base) so if you want to side with Mr. House later on, I suggest you save here as well.Cash your snowglobes before you destroy the bunker, because Jane will become hostile after you do.

Siding with either Legion, NCR or Yes-Man will require you to kill Mr. House. So I suggest, save on the command room, where Mr. House's body is located. After you finished, you can always reload from there.

If you choose to aid one faction, the rest will either go hostile or they will not accept your help.

So, I have two endings done. I've sided with Yes-Man and NCR.

My story working with NCR:

Since Fallout 3, my loyalty lies with Brotherhood Of Steel. They had previously helped the Wasteland (or so I thought). In FONV (Fallout: New Vegas) , they lost in the battle of HELIOS 1 to the NCR. Elder McNamara isolated them in Hidden Valley. I did not condone this because in my opinion, they should be outside, helping the Wasteland. Hardin convinced me that if he became Elder, they will go out and serve their purpose again. When he asked me to help him overthrow the Elder, I agreed. No second thought. That was my first mistake. Bite me right in the ass.

Elder Hardin did not want a truce with NCR so the NCR saw them as threat. Then, fucking NCR forced me to destroy the BoS in their bunker. I want no BoS blood on my hand, so I reprogrammed the turret systems that were placed tactically on each corner of the bunker. I made them attack registered BoS personnel. I saw them died before my eyes. It's heart breaking! Fucking NCR.

After the battle of Hoover Dam, the NCR encourage the Followers to evacuate Fort Mormon too. Damn. They make me regret lending a hand. Stupid!

My story working with Yes-Man:

I do not get why he wanted to override the system but I guess I did not really care. One thing that make me laugh was that after defeating Legate Lanius, I was to deal with Oliver. This part is both hilarious and irritating.

Get this: After the battle, I met - or rather, he decided to reappear- Oliver at Legate Lanius's camp gate. He has the balls to taunt me, ME, who brought down the whole Legion camp single-fucking-handedly. He saw that I put a bullet between Legate Lanius's eyes, and he still dare to challenge me, with only 5-6 troops backing him. He seemed to forget that there were more than 6 robots which each was equipped with missile launcher, were right behind him. One word from me will turn this Oliver and his henchmen to a roasted turkey, in less than 30 seconds. On top of that, he insulted me. Seriously, he is THAT stupid.

Now I have to play from the beginning, if I wanted to side with Mr. House's and Legion. Great!

And for your information, Hardcore mode is really hardcore. I mean, I need Doctor's Bag to heal crippled limbs, and stimpaks will take hours to heal me. And no, I do not play Hardcore mode. *giggles*

As for companions, I think the best combination is Boone and ED-E. Boone's sniping skill made me squeal and ED-E's perception make me stay hidden while sniping. More critical damages. Best combination!

And oh, I hate Mr. New Vegas. He's not funny at all. I miss Three Dogs. :(

Fallout is fun! It's like The Sims, only with guns and explosions enough to blow your head off, creatures that want you for breakfast, assholes who try to have your head on the plate, funny dialogs, nice musics and most importantly, interesting post-apocalyptic storylines.

Now, moving on..

Guess what, I beat the campaign in level Veteran in just TWO DAYS. I am crazy. *sigh*

Frank Woods is one sexy bastard! Plus, he's marine. You know how crazy I am with USMC.. Shame that he sacrificed himself to save Mason..

And this, my dearies, is one best imaginary friend EVER! VIKTOR REZNOV!

I like him since World At War, because of his patriotism and loyalty. He doted Dmitri Petrenko and now, Mason. I like him because his voice is actually Gary Oldman's. That's one of the most underrated stars, in my opinion.

His pain when he saw Dmitri and vowed to avenge him was really touching.

I did wonder though, has he ever love (like, brotherly love) Mason or was he just using him to get revenge? I'd like to think he really loved Mason. After all, he did helped Mason escape..

Now that I play the game for second time, I realized that Woods, Bowman, Hudson, everyone who fought with Mason when Reznov was present, did not address him at all! For instance, when Reznov repeatedly said that he can smell Kravchenko, that Kravchenko is near, Bowman said, "What was it?" And it was Mason who answered. Mason thought he was repeating Reznov when in fact, the question was for him.

Plus, Mason would only meet him when he was separated from his team. Like in the rat tunnel episode.

I agree that Dmitri Petrenko should've died in Berlin. He is a hero and he should die like one, not as a lab rat. He is one of the most character I loved. When he died, I was like,
"OMG NO!!! FUCK YOU STEINER! FUCK YOU KRAVCHENKO! I DID NOT MAKE HIM SURVIVE THE SIEGE OF BERLIN SO THAT YOU CAN KILL HIM IN THE LAB YOU FUCKING FASCISTS!"

He cheated death numerous times, and he helped Russia to win WW2 and he died like a lab rat. Un-fucking-believable.

I played as him in World at War, I think we bonded. Thus the reaction. *giggles*

There, I'm done blabbering about games.

A letter.

I don't know if he read this in time or not, but fingers crossed.


Dear Arif Hj Yahya a.k.a Ret,

SUBJ: Reason for my MIA

Laptopku nada wah, beusai. So don't miss me too much. I'd hate that, eseh. Btw sementara kau menunggu laptopku baik ani, cuba kau liat video ani. Fallout New Vegas. Sialan wah deathclaw. Brijap ah. Masa first ku tejumpa, adiku becerita tu siringku, mamaku ngam melintas. Teriak2 tarus semua. Banyak lagi tu. Damn. Senapang lagi anu inda kuat. Mati~ Yg siuk tu game atu, sniping ah. Me likey.. Kalau ku dapat .50 cal inda kana tangkap, mau ku tu. Liat kepala urg pacah. Hahahaha!



Ko ada liat EMA? Eminem sama Snoopdog kalah arah bieber. Gila banciku kanak2 masa ani. Kimaxed udah. Btw jarang ni blogku cakap melayu ni. Supaya kau sanang baca bah. Besyukur tah. 

Bah, I miss you too.

Yours Truthfully,
Red the Mate. (Ai rhyme eh.)

Bonus. Space Bound.

So after a year and six months, it's no longer me that you want

But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once

I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard, swear to God

I blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms

Drop to my knees and I'm bleedin, I'm tryna stop you from leavin'

You won't even listen so fuck it, I'm tryna stop you from breathin'

I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you squeazin'

Til I snap your neck like a popsicle stick, ain't no possible reason

I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live

WUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
EMINEM FTW!

A great deal.

First thing first.

We've been over this million times now. I'm surprised there are still idiots out there.

We're told to study, and work, and marry, and start a family. And then, what? We die. That's typical life cycle. Ain't it? Well, I am not going to list myself to the cliche.

I was sent to school when I was 2 fucking years old. Now I'm 19. This would be the best period of my life, enjoying, well, my life. I can play sleep whenever I want, eat whatever I want, play XBOX as long as I want and sit in front of my laptop ranting about my life in my blog for hours as I please. I do not want to further my study, and I do not wish to work anytime soon.

My sole wish is I am to be left alone. Leave. me. alone. Let me savor my happy hours, which will end as soon as I walk into a working phase. It will happen, not now, but eventually.

Please stop harassing me with your endless question about working. Your son, your daughter or whomever it is that you want to compare me with, IS NOT me. If they want to study now, or work now, fall into your cliche of life, that's their choice. Their life. You can't tell me how to run my life. If you think I ran a life of a loser, so be it. You can say that I'm ruining my life, but you can't change the fact that it's MY life. I get to say what I do with it, you don't.

We live only once and I am not going to let YOU run it.

Secondly.

MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED!
Okay he's my first cousin, but still, he's my brother. I'm sooooooo excited!!

Congratulations, Haji Fathul Hakeem! *squeal*

Thirdly.

I just found out that Mali's older sister's name. Get this: Amalia Afiqah.

Right....

BWAHAHAHAHAH!! Can you get more obnoxious name than that? Sorry sister, you know I love you, despite your....... heinous name. I understand now, why you insist to be called Afiq. That's a terrible name. I think I like your parents. They have humorous streaks in them. BWAHAHAH!!

Now, the matter on your brother. He wanted to join me at my brother's wedding. That's outright insanity. Because, well he's not my boyfriend, for one. I know I can introduce him as my friend. I mean, I have no problem introducing Arip to my family. Hell, I will bring Arip to the wedding if he wants, in a heartbeat. But this is Mali we're talking about..

This brother of mine, he's from my father side. It means a great deal to me. I want my other brothers, my more important brothers, to like him. I want him to be on their good side. I mean, I know Mali will behave, but what if he doesn't?

I don't know why I'm making such a fuss. It's just a wedding, and it's just Mali.

That's right. It's Mali. Damn it. I can't decide now.

I will think about it tomorrow.

Fourthly. (I'm not really sure it's even a word. Oh what the hell..)

Motherfucker!

Yeah, I'm pointing my finger on you,

Kate Bosworth!

I've always wanted somebody big, and tall (and drop-dead hot) since.. Well, since Eric. Whoopsie. Alex. 

Lucky bitch.

*crying hysterically*

We are not what we used to be

You prefer them, rather than me
unlike you used to be
Why do you treat me differently?
Did I just disappear?
There’s obvious hurt in my voice,
Don’t you notice; don’t you hear?
Can I trust you anymore,
With the secrets we exchanged?
Don’t you notice I’m upset?
Don’t you notice I’m scared?
This change doesn’t just concern you,
It hurts; don’t you care?
Why have you left me estranged?What made you change?
Was it because of me?
We only talk when you want something,
You use me; don’t you see?
Do you like who you’ve become?
How the new you is arranged?
We’ve become so distant now,
I miss the way you were before.
When I know you better than anyone else
and we used to be happy with each other
and laughing out loud together.

So if I don't love you tomorrow
The way I love you today
Don't ask me why
Because I'm telling you now
You've changed
And not in a good way
I don't know you anymore.
A total stranger to me.

*heavy sigh*

P/s: I have every right to be emo right now. Better emo, than to not care at all. I am no cold-hearted bitch. Unlike you. *points to random people*

New lesson every day.

I've been teaming with same people, same group, same lobby when I play MW2 since I was in CS, right.. I knew their skills, their tactics and whatnot.. It's getting boring really.. Then I thought, maybe I need new faces..

So I began to resurface back in game forum (not gonna tell which) to recruit new squad.. Then I met this guy, he said he had to see me playing so he invited me to play with him. Kind of like walk-in interview. His forum post was over 500, he must've been playing for sometime now.. So I thought, why the hell not. I gave it a shot, no pun intended.

His gamertag is H3i7ixxxxxx. We've teamed up six to eight times a week, He's not pro but definitely not n00b either, then I'm officially on his squad. We have 13 to 18 members and I've played with them in turns.

Then one day, he was on at the same time as I. We played. Now I'm not one to talk when I was in the middle of shooting (I am not that skilled), so I usually put my mic on mute. But on that day, we won on lucky kill. I laughed.

Heili: Dude, you're a girl.
Mister: *gasped*
Pronto: (I guess he was shell-shocked because he was quiet.)
Me: ..... Uh.. I am.
Heili: I thought you're guy!
Pronto, Mister: *disconnected*
Me: So?
Heili: What the hell man..

That day, when I logged on to the forum, their siggies were changed.

(Our team banner)

One of us is LITERALLY a girl. Not kidding! 

(dance)

Here I thought I was gonna find new members. Pffffffffttt.

And no, I'm not giving away my gamertag and my team's name. 

I'm embarrassed enough. Most girls do not play this game. =__=""

But my team members are real supportive. They won't either. ;)

I've been having problem with my connection for few days now, and I learnt an important lesson I think I should tell you guys.

Don't play Modern Warfare 2 when your connection is crap. It's SUICIDE!

Suicide IS a joke.

We should not make a joke about suicide? Why not? She takes life as joke herself. Why should we pity her? God gave her life (I doubt that she has no brain, really) and she wanted to end it by simply leaping off a building? How is that not funny? No matter how difficult the problems she faced, she should never think about suicide in the first place.

I knew a man, who, get this, SUCCESSFULLY committed suicide by consuming harmful products. Apparently, he had a problem that he chose to solve it by murdering himself, rather than to sit and have a discussion with his family. While he had effectively liberated himself from his problem, he had also left FOUR children and a widow behind. Put yourself in the children’s shoe. If you think growing up without a father is hard, how about living the rest of your life, knowing that your father had opted to kill himself, rather than to trust you with his problem? The eldest kid was 8 when it happened. Tell me, how is that NOT stupid?

Same goes with this girl. If she takes the leap, she would leave a very disappointed mother and a troubled father behind. Her family will blame themselves every day, thinking that they had failed her when in fact, they didn’t. It was her choice to think that she’s strong enough to deal with whatever problems she had by herself. When she realized that she was truly not as strong as she thinks, she simply ends her life. When you lost loved ones like that, bearing the unspeakable guilt on your shoulder every single day, is it not as tormenting? Then who would guarantee that no family of hers is going to commit suicide again, if suicide is as acceptable when you’re facing problems or just stressed?

Suicide is the most selfish thing a person could ever commit. Attempt suicide should be recorded as the biggest bullshit ever, in history of mankind. These people are only seeking for recognition, fishing for sympathies. If you have issues, go see therapists. That’s why there are degrees for them. And no, I sincerely have no compassion left for these self-centered people. My compassion is solely for the people who fought for their lives against famine or sickness, basically them who lived in Third World countries.

One thing led to another

Oh fuck. I want Fallout: New Vegas.

Now I haven't finished writing my FF, and this Fallout is finally released. Damn.

 

Then, there's Call Of Duty: Black Ops

Release Date:

US: November 9, 2010 

 

And then, there's Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood.

Release Date:

US: November 16, 2010 

 

I'm bleeding. I'm bleeding to death. I'm beyond help. 

Anyway..

I think I agree that karma is a bitch.

You see, there's this guy, he once liked me when I belonged to another. I liked him too, but I didn't have the heart to break up with my guy. Then, I'm single. There's nothing preventing me to be with the guy I liked, right? But I was wrong. He was already taken when I met him. He still like me, apparently. And I him. Problem is, I want him all for myself. I have and will never share. What's mine, must be mine alone. I am fucking possessive, but what I am not, is hypocrite. I don't want to deal with drama, not again. Not ever. 

 

I would never ask him to choose between me and his girlfriend because, see, if he knew that I am single, and his heart is fixed on me, he'd leave her in a heartbeat. I don't have to ask. But he didn't so obviously, he still want his girl too. So the only option left is for me to walk away. And that's exactly what I did. Walk away. Maybe next time. 

 

Eric Johnson vs Eric Northman

It's hard to be faithful..I'm sorry.. I haven't exactly crossed the path yet, but someone else has been occupying my mind now.. I guess it's worse than actually cross the path, right? You said,, it's okay if you have 10 others to warm your bed at night, but to have your heart feels for one, that's not your lover, it's painful.. I know.. I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean to do that..

But what can I do, he's as hot.. He's a detective.

And you wanna know what else is fucked up?

His name is ERIC. Eric Johnson.

No, I'm not in love. Yes, he's been on my mind. But only that. I swear I don't love him. How can I love someone that's not you? You're still my number one..

Alexander Skarsgard.. He's a cop, but you're so much better.. You're a marine. You're taller.. You're yummier. Those eyes.. Yummy.

Kidding!!

Hey, a writer every now and then gotta have a wide imagination, right? But really. Eric Johnson is hot as hell. Second only to *my* Eric. *dreamy eyes*

Now where the fuck is my mate?! I haven't talked to him since.. Forever! Mate, where are you? I give you until Saturday, if you still won't come out from wherever you're hiding, I'm filing a missing person report! 

YOU THINK I'M FUNNY? HA! TRY ME!

Narcissistic much?

What are examples of a narcissist's behavior in a relationship?

 

In the beginning, he is so considerate of you, and seems to understand you like no one else. He is very self assured, and this is what pulls you in. It makes him insanely attractive. He doesn't get very upset for you when you are upset. He is shallow, you feel that there is something missing in your emotional bond. You feel that you can't crack his shell.

Another thing that I notice is that he doesn't talk about childhood experiences. He does however tell of all of the mean people that did him wrong. He is eternally the victim. No matter how much pain you have experienced, his is always greater. When you fight about anything, he will accuse you of the very thing that he is guilty of. When he has done something really wrong to you, when you find him out, instead of soothing you, he will just get madder at you. Cannot see the actual problem in an argument but only hears the words you say and uses them against you. Very, very hypocritical. He may seem to ignore you for awhile, that is because he has found narcissistic supply somewhere else. This could be a woman, a co-worker, a friend, anything to feed his ego. When that runs out, he will be back to you for more supply.

These people are like aliens. They have trouble keeping jobs, because they can't get along with people that have a mind of their own. They have no friendships that have lasted. They are irresponsible with bills. They will argue about the smallest thing forever. They lie about everything from what their dad does for a living to denying their cheating. He thinks that every woman wants him, when in fact most are rolling their eyes at his ridiculous behavior. He works on himself not the relationship. examples of this are going to a gym, taking extracurricular classes. playing an instrument. He will cry about things, but your tears mean nothing. They annoy him.

If you are involved with one if these monsters, it is said that they cannot change. I know that anything is possible with God, but I spent 14 years of my life dealing with this kind of relationship, and I am just now realizing how nice it would be to be with someone that cared about my feelings and helped in the relationship. I have finally lost the attraction to my N. I read every thing I could about narcissism, and it all clicked. When you get the facts, it takes the mystery and attraction away, and you can smile again.


Source: Answer.com.

Sounds familiar, no? :)

Rackcoon babe!

One of these days, I will treat me a 1080p 46' Samsung HDTV and some Sony subwoofer. I love you Microsoft! I love you, Sony! Way to waste my cash. Yay.

Now go and dry-hump my 360.

karak game - said Arif
psychofreak - said Mali

Awwww.. I love you guys too. :)

Jabber.

So.. I asked my dear friend, does he preferred Female Shepard or Male Shepard? He said,

If I have to stare at an ass for thirty hours, I want it to be a woman's.

Absurd. I mean, what's wrong with my ass?  =/

But then again, I'm in love with my badass and yummy Male Shepard. Gotta love that fine abs!

I've seen Resident Evil: Afterlife. Thanks Mali for dragging me.

I hate dramas. This ain't no Hollywood, baby. I'd do everything in my power to stay the hell away from it. Every problem has a simple way to be resolved, why settle on dramas? You just need to know what is it that you want and then, stand your ground. Voila! Problem solved. I do not want to deal with it so fuck off. Call me when it's over.

Another thing I'm happy about is:

Awwwww......... What happened, Livvie?
No, wait. You know what? Don't answer that. I don't care.


And I'd like to applaud Berbatov. Though I still don't like him, I'd take anyone who put Manchester on top.

Now, I'm going to switch on my xbox, insert a disk, plug in my earmuff, sit in front on the tv quietly, and glue my hands on the controller. Works for you? Works for me.

Oh, one more thing. I have a connection problem. I can't receive/send message, browse or even call any number. Some of my friends got this problem too. I guess 3G's acting up again. Sigh.

I'm a biotic God! Fear me!

You know what I love about games? Saved data, targets, missions and walkthroughs. I love that everything is just plain black, or white. This guy is the bad guy, or sometimes, will turn to be one near the ending. Either way, shoot him dead. This guy is a good guy, or will be one near the ending, so let him be. You don’t have to question your decisions, whether it’s a mistake to let him be, or to end him, because you can always load your previous saved data.

There are missions to accomplish, and walkthroughs to guide you. By one mere button, one single push, every fault can be rectified, and vice versa. Just like that.

The game world is very just. Every betrayal is paid, every benevolence is returned and every gratitude is shown. If someone wrongs you, shoot them between the eyes. Reload the scene and shoot them again, until you’re content. You can opt to suffer no remorse afterward.

You do not need to stop and think about your actions’ consequences. That’s the beautiful part.

I don’t know which offends me the most, your reproving us without even taking a second to contemplate our outlooks, or that our doings upset you.

I AM A BIOTIC GOD! FEAR ME!

 

p/s: My Shepard is male, was born on earth, is paragon, is a sentinel and a former Spectre. My Shepard has better looks. Like Ryan Giggs or something. ;p 

Mass Effect 2

My newest obsession. Mass Effect 2. I didn't research about this game, all I know was it's like Fallout, that we can control the story ending.

When I looked at Miranda Lawson,



first thing on my mind was "Gads, she looked like Sarah Walker! Even her voice."

That's because, SHE IS SARAH WALKER!



YVONNE STRAHOVSKI! 

She's the girl, Agent Sarah Walker! She is Chuck's girl!

And Kal Reegar, is Adam Baldwin. WHAT THE..?

Damn you, Mass Effect.
As if obsession to Fallout 3 and Chuck was not enough.

I spent 12 hours playing it. And I think I'm in love with my very own customized Commander Shepard.

Seriously.. Damn you.

OH by the way.. I love the quotes as well.

Shepard: I'll dance next to you, if you want to think we're dancing together go ahead.

Asari Merc (on Miranda): I can see Cerberus lets her whore herself out with those skanky outfits
Jack: I like her, Shepard, are we still recruiting?


"I'm Commander Shepard and this is my favorite store in the Citadel"

I was rolling on the floor, laughing for good 5 minutes!

But Jack's are THE BEST!

"You don't need to know someone to have sex with them, You just need to know where to put it!"

OWNED!

To Arip: "I want to taste you, fuck you and rub myself all over you." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! Games or books are bad influence on me. HAHAHAHA damn mate!

Happy 20th Birthday, Yayah.

I wish you something, just can't remember,
Don't be upset, you're my family member.
It was clearly, on my mind,
With so many thoughts, it's hard to find.

Maybe it's simply not that essential,
Please lose that frown, you have so much potential.
On second thought, it might be coming back to me,
Now I know, why those brain pills were free.

Visions appear of colorful balloons,
In the background, I hear those fine tunes.
Near the end of the dream, I can taste a delicious cake,
It must be your birthday, as I awake.

Happy Birthday Twinnieeee.

Happy Birthday Auntieeeee.

Happy Birthday Bestieeeee.

Whichever you prefer, I still love you the same!!

p/s: Sorry simple. Last minute action. :p And tolong comment arah FB okay.. Or not. Manasaja. Hahahaha! Tapi jangan disini. Love you!

Real Love - Massari

Serious. I love this song. 

Girl I'm going out of my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I guess I feel I'm running out of time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby girl I want you to know
I'm watching you go, I'm watching you pass me by
Its real love, that you don't know about

Baby I was there all alone
When you be doing things, I would watch you
I picture you and me all alone
I'm wishing you was someone I can talk to
I gotta get you out of my head
But baby girl I gotta see you once again
Its real love, that you don't know about

Every now and then I go to sleep
I couldn't stop dreaming about you
Your love has got me feeling kind of weak
I really can't see me without you
And now you run around in my head
I'm never gonna let you slip away again
Its real love, that you don't know about

Every now and then when I want you
I wish that I could tell you that I want you
If I could have the chance to talk with you
If I could have the chance to walk with you Then I would stop holding it in
I'd never have to go through this again
Its real love, that you don't know about

Today when I saw you alone
I know I had to come up and approach you
'Cause girl I really gotta let you know
All about the things you made me go through And now she looking at me in the eye
And now you got me hoping I ain't dreaming again
Its real love, that you don't know about

You're the one that I want
No one can take it from me
Even though I don't really know you
I got a lot of love I wanna show you And you be right there in front of me
I see you passing in front of me
No no girl I need your love
Baby I need your love



WaD. m

We were in your car, singing to this song. Looped.

Strange that I doubt the man I was with for months, but didn't doubt you, whom I only met two days prior. What we had was.. surreal.

I don't know if that's a real love but being with you was the best 2 weeks of my life.
My only regret was walking away.

My Automatic World.

Doodling while waiting for him to come. Pfffffftttt.

Life's a bitch.

The Story Left Untold - Every Avenue



Everything you own
In a suitcase by the door
The words that keep you home
Are failing

Everything we take
Out in anger
Eventually we'll break
Down to answers
That are ringing in my head

Slow down
Take a deep breath
We can't give up tonight

Is it right to sit and watch this die?
We're slowly letting go
Like its better left alone
So erase the damages we've made
The story left untold is better than you know
Oh, is better than you know

Of all the nights we spent wrapped in blankets
The mattress on the floor we now hold sacred
You were my best friend

So much more to say
Suspended in the air
Between the truth and rights in place
Spilling over everything
Before you slip away
Before you slip away from me
Slow down

Is it right to sit and watch this die?
We're slowly letting go
Its better left alone
So erase the damages we've made
The story left untold is better than you know

Between You And I - Every Avenue



Would you believe me if I said I was sorry
The question wasn't mean to hurt,
It was just my fear of losing you.
And now you're filling all the space that surrounds you
I'll soon be tucked away underneath your bed
Where you gave yourself to me.
Where I gave myself to you.

Maybe it's all for the best,
But I just don't see any good in this, no.
Maybe we'll find something better
But the lovers that leave us
Will always hold the place

Maybe it was wrong of me to think I could keep you
And maybe it's the last few drinks
Taking over my mouth and all I've been thinking
I want you to know that I am fine here without you
But I can't bring myself to lie to you.
And since we're being honest, I feel I should tell you
I've been filling up the empty space between you and I

Between you and I, she could never compare to you
Between you and I, I still keep your pictures underneath my bed
Where she gives herself to me.
Where I give myself to you.

Maybe it's all for the best,
But I just don't see any good in this, no.
Maybe we'll find something better
But the lovers that leave us
Will always hold the place

___________________________

The one I do love, doesn't love me. But the one I don't, does. Life's unfair.

I love you, and he loves me. Never once did he hurt me. On the contrary, he was there when I needed some support.

I don't know what to do. But I do know that I don't ever want to hurt him. He's been an angel.

Maybe we need to tone it down a bit. Give it some time. I don't know!!!!