its been a while!
Do you get bored of your girlfriend/ boyfriend easily?
= honestly i do. so they have to find out how to make me not enjoy my life. =/
Ever felt like you're not good enough?
= yes, like now.
Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
= hell no.
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
= ooh, i even wonder, do i really have one? (exclude si arip pasal ia apparently busy kan exam.)
Do you think two people can last forever?
= yes if they know how to work their relationship.
Anyone jealous of you or anything you have?
= i have nothing to be jealous of.
Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
= not yet.
Your best/closest friend is pregnant - you say?
= can i be the second mum? =D
What are you most waiting for?
= arip abis exam.
Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
= yes.
Think back to July 2008, were you single?
= is it last year? yes.
Where is the person you want to kiss right now?
= none.
What are you doing tomorrow?
= same as what i have done today.
Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
= for now, none. i am all alone.
Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to at all anymore?
= yes but i am so immuned to it. its a cycle of life. people come and go.
What friend do you tell the most to?
= none.
What side of the bed do you sleep on?
= comfortable side.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
= no.
What personalities of a girl/boy do you love most?
= quiet and listen to me ranting. (this type of guy extinct already.)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
(insert title)
today, i am going to take you look around my favorite stuffs. its a tour. you cannot resist this.
first: my Mozilla Firefox. look at my theme. i forgot the theme's name but its cool, right? its orange! i love Mozilla.
second: welcome to my Adobe Photoshop. these are my brushes. some of it were given by Jeremy and some are downloaded from various websites.
third: say hi to my photoshop actions collection.
i have like 200+ fonts (exclude those free fonts that are already in your PC.) in my laptops, 50+ patterns, 20+ gradients and 100+ textures. the fonts are mostly from DaFont and the patterns are, i don't remember.
first: my Mozilla Firefox. look at my theme. i forgot the theme's name but its cool, right? its orange! i love Mozilla.
second: welcome to my Adobe Photoshop. these are my brushes. some of it were given by Jeremy and some are downloaded from various websites.
third: say hi to my photoshop actions collection.
i have like 200+ fonts (exclude those free fonts that are already in your PC.) in my laptops, 50+ patterns, 20+ gradients and 100+ textures. the fonts are mostly from DaFont and the patterns are, i don't remember.
and changed the skin! its Manchester United. a tribute to Oxy. HEY OXY, YOUR NAME HERE!
and to the mate. The image consists of Macheda, Ronaldo, Rooney and Vidic. Macheda is quite a hunk but he's no match for Ronaldo. 
and to the mate. The image consists of Macheda, Ronaldo, Rooney and Vidic. Macheda is quite a hunk but he's no match for Ronaldo. Monday, April 27, 2009
Gravity
tribute to my dear mate. which one looks better? the first or the second? i think the second one. okay, i like their design. please do not copy my design.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Dirty Little Secret
my deepest secret.
i had an affair with one of the attachment teacher in my school.
(attachment teacher means he is still yet to be a teacher. he was just sent to our school to gain more experience. just like training.)
i was 15, he is 22. i first met him when he was asked to be a replacement teacher in my class because the original teacher couldn't make it. that was the only time he was in our class, i think. i don't know where and how exactly did he get my number. after all, that wasn't important because i have a crush on him. (note the word crush. i never said that i love him!) so we started exchanging messages, and late-night phonecalls. as you know, love affairs between teacher and student in a same school are forbidden. so we kept it secret in order to protect his reputation. moreover, i got a boyfriend too and this teacher knew it. i told him that i love my boyfriend. so our relationship was more to having fun other than being in love.
we always met during break time and after school. my friends were curious, i told them he's been my tutor at home. then his training's over, he continued his study. we ended our relationship just like that.
our relationship lasted for 6 months only. and the breakup was not painful at all. i think its because it was just my another just-for-fun affair.
my point is, being in (so-called) love and you have to keep your relationship secret is so much fun. so my relation with this teacher was just for fun. merely for fun. i know what you think. student shouldn't be with her teacher. but he was not officially my teacher that time. he wasn't the one who teach any of our subject. i have not return his call ever since he became a teacher. lest you ask, whether or not i ever feel guilty about doing it to my boyfriend, no i don't. i was not cheating. GAHH! don't ever start. he cheated on me like, twice can! he even walked with that shuweeet gal in front of me. i even wonder what was i lacking compared to the girls. nevermind.
p/s: i don't want to disclose the teacher's identity here. because if i do, you're surely gonna remember him which is never going to happen. if you still insist to know who is him, the hint is above.
the end.
i had an affair with one of the attachment teacher in my school.
(attachment teacher means he is still yet to be a teacher. he was just sent to our school to gain more experience. just like training.)
i was 15, he is 22. i first met him when he was asked to be a replacement teacher in my class because the original teacher couldn't make it. that was the only time he was in our class, i think. i don't know where and how exactly did he get my number. after all, that wasn't important because i have a crush on him. (note the word crush. i never said that i love him!) so we started exchanging messages, and late-night phonecalls. as you know, love affairs between teacher and student in a same school are forbidden. so we kept it secret in order to protect his reputation. moreover, i got a boyfriend too and this teacher knew it. i told him that i love my boyfriend. so our relationship was more to having fun other than being in love.
we always met during break time and after school. my friends were curious, i told them he's been my tutor at home. then his training's over, he continued his study. we ended our relationship just like that.
our relationship lasted for 6 months only. and the breakup was not painful at all. i think its because it was just my another just-for-fun affair.
my point is, being in (so-called) love and you have to keep your relationship secret is so much fun. so my relation with this teacher was just for fun. merely for fun. i know what you think. student shouldn't be with her teacher. but he was not officially my teacher that time. he wasn't the one who teach any of our subject. i have not return his call ever since he became a teacher. lest you ask, whether or not i ever feel guilty about doing it to my boyfriend, no i don't. i was not cheating. GAHH! don't ever start. he cheated on me like, twice can! he even walked with that shuweeet gal in front of me. i even wonder what was i lacking compared to the girls. nevermind.
p/s: i don't want to disclose the teacher's identity here. because if i do, you're surely gonna remember him which is never going to happen. if you still insist to know who is him, the hint is above.
the end.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
The mate asked me one night,
"how bad do you want him?"
i said,
"to the extent of seeing him everywhere."
and this is the example of "how bad i want him."
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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
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mate, got this? i'm crazy. farks.i don't even have the chance to tell him. actually, i did. but i didn't take it seriously. once i realized how bad i want him, the chance has already gone astray. and this is a lifetime regret.
how sad. i know. but don't bother. its just another rubbish-y entry i made out of my stressful time.
p/s: jeremy, stop laughing. i'll smack your head!
"how bad do you want him?"
i said,
"to the extent of seeing him everywhere."
and this is the example of "how bad i want him."
--------------------------------
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
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mate, got this? i'm crazy. farks.
how sad. i know. but don't bother. its just another rubbish-y entry i made out of my stressful time.
p/s: jeremy, stop laughing. i'll smack your head!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Power Ranger Operation Overdrive
i bought a new power ranger series. woohoo!
POWER RANGER OPERATION OVERDRIVE!
now, this is good. they way they transform, uh.. i love it! their devices are also cool. when they transform, they will say, "overdrive accelerate." that's cool. i want to be one, too. and in one episode, there is a monster who apparently a son of Rita Repulsa and Lord Zedd.
"ahh, after ten thousand years i'm free, its time to conquer earth!" anyone? YES! she is the monster in Mighty Morphin, the first power rangers. they one who always shout "make my monster grow!" when her little monster got defeated. enough with the recap. and so this Rita's son (i forgot its name) made the Overdrive Ranger lose their powers. then Sentinel Knight (whoever he was) summoned the previous rangers to come to rescue. the previous rangers are Adam, the black ranger from PR Mighty Morphin, Tori the blue ranger from PR Ninja Storms, and Bridge from SPD. then Andrew Hartford repaired Alpha 5 because it is the only thing knows how to get the grid of Power Ranger Universe. whatever. i forgot.
oei mr director, do you need help? i can be the additional orange ranger. i can fly, with the help of green screen of course. i want to try acting with green screen. i want to save the world. muahahahaha!
i love James MacLurcan. he is the red ranger, Mack Hartford . the android. the son of Andrew Hartford. okay dears, from now on, call me Nes MacLurcan. or Nes Hartford.
The Interview
The interview is this Monday. 
Okay, shoot me now. HEADSHOT! Farks. i can’t believe I could be this nervous. When is the last time I got this panic attack? Serious panic attack? Oh yeah, when I was in the library and he borrowed my notes. Yes, I remembered already. He’s cute, and aww, his voice, his eyebrows.. 
hush! Back to point. I will have my bloody interview for my degree this Monday. My nails are clean, my certificates are ready. Anything else I would need? I don’t think so. Cross your fingers now my dears. If I failed this interview, my life will be doomed, like for eternity. I’ll kill myself.
p/s: should anyone from the department reads this, remember that you cannot fail me. because I would really kill myself.
Okay, shoot me now. HEADSHOT! Farks. i can’t believe I could be this nervous. When is the last time I got this panic attack? Serious panic attack? Oh yeah, when I was in the library and he borrowed my notes. Yes, I remembered already. He’s cute, and aww, his voice, his eyebrows.. hush! Back to point. I will have my bloody interview for my degree this Monday. My nails are clean, my certificates are ready. Anything else I would need? I don’t think so. Cross your fingers now my dears. If I failed this interview, my life will be doomed, like for eternity. I’ll kill myself. p/s: should anyone from the department reads this, remember that you cannot fail me. because I would really kill myself.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Marque Codes
i learn this from the MATE. si arip bah si arip..
copy the text in the box and paste it in your blog.
copy the text in the box and paste it in your blog.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Headache
**editted.
Its April again. Time for annual headache.
his birthday.
. Since he is a Manchester United fan, I planned to give him a Nemanja Vidic (ooh he loves Vidic. XD) autograph from eBay (which will cost me approx B$25 
). Or Manchester United merchandises from eBay, or from official Manchester United store. I don’t know. is it appropriate? Or I make a CD? Scrapbook? I think if I make the present myself, it’ll be more meaningful. BUT I DON’T HAVE TIME! 
What do you think? What present should I get him?
Its April again. Time for annual headache.
his birthday.
. Since he is a Manchester United fan, I planned to give him a Nemanja Vidic (ooh he loves Vidic. XD) autograph from eBay (which will cost me approx B$25 ). Or Manchester United merchandises from eBay, or from official Manchester United store. I don’t know. is it appropriate? Or I make a CD? Scrapbook? I think if I make the present myself, it’ll be more meaningful. BUT I DON’T HAVE TIME! What do you think? What present should I get him?
Saturday, April 11, 2009
I HATE YOU
i hate them. seriously. they're cheating.
i hate Jeremy. i shouldn't tell him about this friend, "mud2" who was cheating.
me: my friend is cheating.
Jeremy: cheating where?
me: pet society. you know, i play so hard to increase the level!
Jeremy: hahaha, its easy. i know how to cheat too.
me: don't you dare! i will hate you forever if you do.
Jeremy: why?
me: because i dont like. its not fair.
Jeremy: i can cheat in less than 3 minutes.
me: i know. you're genius but please......
Jeremy: HAHAHAHA
me: -.-"
then i log in to my PS, i saw his pet in the top 5. i was like, EFFFFFFF! and i log out. i felt so upset. you see, reefious doesnt shower for four days already. poor reefious.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Downloading And Asking Permission
HOW TO DOWNLOAD A SKIN IN BLOGSKINS! for Blogger Main.
step 1:
say you want to download Fion's skin. Kaiser Chiefs by Poopsicle. click on that skin and this is what you should see.
step 2:
scroll down. you should by now see the button. click on blogger main to download.
Step 3:
and then this pop-up window. i'm using Mozilla Firefox, so this was my pop-up look like. hit OK button.
and then the skin's code should be in your notepad by now. DONE! DO NOT CLOSE THE WINDOW YET.
HOW TO ASK PERMISSION.
continue from step above.
step 4:
scroll back to the top. you see Fion's name? the one i circled in red in the picture? its poopsicle.
click that.
there you go! now you can close your window. wait for the skinner's respond. tell me if you already have their respond. i dont want to cause any trouble with any blogskinners. thank you.
step 1:
say you want to download Fion's skin. Kaiser Chiefs by Poopsicle. click on that skin and this is what you should see.
step 2:
scroll down. you should by now see the button. click on blogger main to download.
Step 3:and then this pop-up window. i'm using Mozilla Firefox, so this was my pop-up look like. hit OK button.
and then the skin's code should be in your notepad by now. DONE! DO NOT CLOSE THE WINDOW YET.HOW TO ASK PERMISSION.
continue from step above.
step 4:
scroll back to the top. you see Fion's name? the one i circled in red in the picture? its poopsicle.
click that.
step 5:
this is what you see after you click on the name. and beside that name, got this mail icon. click that. and then compose your mail. asking her permission to use her pictures for a new skin.
this is the sample:
"hi, i think your pictures in the (insert skin name) very cute/good/nice. can i use it for my new skin?"
there you go! now you can close your window. wait for the skinner's respond. tell me if you already have their respond. i dont want to cause any trouble with any blogskinners. thank you.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
90210
what's new about me?
bought this DVD. 90210! Beverly Hills. i love all the characters, except tracy, Naomi's mum. i love annie, love her father mr harry wilson, love her super-duper cool grandma tabitha, love her bestfriend erin silver. and i PARTICULARLY IN LOVE with ETHAN WARD (Dustin Milligan) and Ryan Matthews (Ryan Eggold).
Ethan Ward.
i want it so bad.. :(
unfortunately there is none in brunei, which make me crave for it even more.
i will search for it in eBay later. i'll look for it and by next month, it'll be mine!
muahahaha.
okay i'm done.
i will talk about this later, after i found a sidekick seller, who will sell his/her well-functioned sidekick for only USD 200.
babai~ wish me luck.
bought this DVD. 90210! Beverly Hills. i love all the characters, except tracy, Naomi's mum. i love annie, love her father mr harry wilson, love her super-duper cool grandma tabitha, love her bestfriend erin silver. and i PARTICULARLY IN LOVE with ETHAN WARD (Dustin Milligan) and Ryan Matthews (Ryan Eggold).
Ethan Ward. He's cute, yes? yes...
nose and lips. aww. very addictive. kiss those lips! eat that nose!!!!!
OMG is that a sidekick?!
T-MOBILE SIDEKICK LX.
nose and lips. aww. very addictive. kiss those lips! eat that nose!!!!!and and, this scene. naomi and adrianna.
OMG is that a sidekick?! LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, i present to you:
T-MOBILE SIDEKICK LX.
i want it so bad.. :(
unfortunately there is none in brunei, which make me crave for it even more.
i will search for it in eBay later. i'll look for it and by next month, it'll be mine!
muahahaha.
okay i'm done.
i will talk about this later, after i found a sidekick seller, who will sell his/her well-functioned sidekick for only USD 200.
babai~ wish me luck.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Rubbish? Yes?
HOLLA!
i'm tired of my background. look so messy. so i change it. simple as possible. but i'm so lazy to change the font color. dont know why, lately i'm so effing lazy to sign in my MSN. i just sign in to check if my mate and jeremy online. if no, i'll go offline and play with my photoshop and codes. i am a photoshop bitch. sorry. and my mood always no good. i want to screammmm.
i bumped to an old love a few days ago. and its like, there's a new spark between us. its always work like that. you broke up with this person for no bad reason, then a few years later when you meet again, the old feeling rises. and i started to think that we are not suppose to break up. whatever. just a feeling, no big deal.
some people are just not meant to be together. not destined to be together.
so i shall wait for my mate to be happy first. understand this: i just want him to be happy. thats it. i do not WAIT for him like that. he's my mate, my brother. what do you expect? we are close like bras and underwears. i know, lousy example. but yeah. is it wrong to be close to a guy? like, really close? why do you have to assume that we are in love? so immature. yeah i love my mate, more like i love my boyfriend (if i have one). because he is my friend. i treasure friends more than my significant one, because boyfriends come and go but friends stick together (speaking from experience). i rather lose my boyfriend than lose my best mate.
i actually dont know what i'm talking about now.
addicted to pixel. ohhhh. i miss SMSA's library. seriously. i miss the times when my friends and me studying together, talk about everything. (yeah right. put the sock in it! i just miss one person, very effing much. *sigh* when will i meet him again? *sigh harder.*)
i'm tired of my background. look so messy. so i change it. simple as possible. but i'm so lazy to change the font color. dont know why, lately i'm so effing lazy to sign in my MSN. i just sign in to check if my mate and jeremy online. if no, i'll go offline and play with my photoshop and codes. i am a photoshop bitch. sorry. and my mood always no good. i want to screammmm.
i bumped to an old love a few days ago. and its like, there's a new spark between us. its always work like that. you broke up with this person for no bad reason, then a few years later when you meet again, the old feeling rises. and i started to think that we are not suppose to break up. whatever. just a feeling, no big deal.
some people are just not meant to be together. not destined to be together.
so i shall wait for my mate to be happy first. understand this: i just want him to be happy. thats it. i do not WAIT for him like that. he's my mate, my brother. what do you expect? we are close like bras and underwears. i know, lousy example. but yeah. is it wrong to be close to a guy? like, really close? why do you have to assume that we are in love? so immature. yeah i love my mate, more like i love my boyfriend (if i have one). because he is my friend. i treasure friends more than my significant one, because boyfriends come and go but friends stick together (speaking from experience). i rather lose my boyfriend than lose my best mate.
i actually dont know what i'm talking about now.
addicted to pixel. ohhhh. i miss SMSA's library. seriously. i miss the times when my friends and me studying together, talk about everything. (yeah right. put the sock in it! i just miss one person, very effing much. *sigh* when will i meet him again? *sigh harder.*)
Thursday, April 02, 2009
FLH Fahrenheit Love.
YAY! I bought Fei Lun Hai’s karaoke today! They are sooo effing handsome. They just made their concert in Malaysia on 28 March, in support of my birthday. HAHAHA! When will I ever meet them..? I don’t mind spending $500 just to hug Aaron. Or talk. Whatever. As long as I get to say a word to them. I don’t care. I am willing to be died from starvation just to save money for them. XD
Speaking of which, I think the 28th was their second concert held in Malaysia. They have been to Singapore too. Why don’t they make one here in Brunei? Albeit Brunei is a Malay country, there are still Chinese here. Moreover, our dearest Chun is Bruneian, and we got Malay girls whom also crazy about FLH. I think Butterfly Lover’s promotion is not enough. I need to see ALL OF THEM! I want ‘em ALL. Chun is a Bruneian, he should introduce Brunei to his colleagues.
Blah blah. I have nothing to write!
OH YEAH!
My birthday. Do you want to know how its end? Here.
My auntie was working on a morning shift that day, and she came straight back home from RIPAS to Lumut because she wanted to celebrate my birthday (at least that’s what I think). She bought a cake, a big chocolate cake. She cooked several dishes, and she cooked lots of French fries, said that we cannot put a chicken on fire because we’re only 5 people, so the French fries will take the fire on behalf of the chicken. XD
At last, we cannot finish the French fries AND the dishes. At 10 pm, my mum got back from work and she bought me 5 different slices from different cakes. All of it was chocolate flavor…… I love it. thank you. thank you!
p/s: I am willing to work as maid at Chun’s house.
CHUN, YOU NEED MAID? NO PAY ALSO CAN!
Speaking of which, I think the 28th was their second concert held in Malaysia. They have been to Singapore too. Why don’t they make one here in Brunei? Albeit Brunei is a Malay country, there are still Chinese here. Moreover, our dearest Chun is Bruneian, and we got Malay girls whom also crazy about FLH. I think Butterfly Lover’s promotion is not enough. I need to see ALL OF THEM! I want ‘em ALL. Chun is a Bruneian, he should introduce Brunei to his colleagues.
Blah blah. I have nothing to write!
OH YEAH!
My birthday. Do you want to know how its end? Here.
My auntie was working on a morning shift that day, and she came straight back home from RIPAS to Lumut because she wanted to celebrate my birthday (at least that’s what I think). She bought a cake, a big chocolate cake. She cooked several dishes, and she cooked lots of French fries, said that we cannot put a chicken on fire because we’re only 5 people, so the French fries will take the fire on behalf of the chicken. XD
At last, we cannot finish the French fries AND the dishes. At 10 pm, my mum got back from work and she bought me 5 different slices from different cakes. All of it was chocolate flavor…… I love it. thank you. thank you!
p/s: I am willing to work as maid at Chun’s house.
CHUN, YOU NEED MAID? NO PAY ALSO CAN!
- Nes
- 19, Female. Loves orange, Manchester United and XBOX 360. Languages used in this blog are English, Malay and some Chinese.
