I'm abused.

aku banci adiku.. banar2. well sometimes aku sayang ia pulang, tapi aku banci ia. ia selalu dapat barang, aku inda. kalau barang atu meant for aku, ia jua ambil. mcm, hard drive lah kiranya. aku bali tu ah, tapi 24/7 arah ia. aku 'minjam', ia marah pastu umban2 barang. pastu mamaku kata, "mengalah tah. kau yg tua." aku mcm wtf. aku jua punya. kali mamaku mcm "sejak bila kamu pandai "aku punya, ia punya" ani? sama2 bah." IA PAKAI 24/7 KALI AH! he's fucking 19! patutnya pandai pikir sudah!

mcm haritu, aku kata aku kan bali hp 5800, skali ia dulu majal mamaku bali. ia iinda keraja so ia pakai duit mamaku lah masih. kali aku gtau aku kan bali pastu ia mcm "eh apakan ikut2 hp urg ani." kima ah. aku kali dulu kan bali. "well, aku bali dulu so cari yg lain ah." kimakimakimakima!

pastu pasal urg lain slalu kata ia nampak mcm abang, aku mcm adik, ia slalu mcm "yatah, usul inda berakal bah tu. manakan urg ucap damit." kima, aku kah ia yg inda berakal?

pastu ah, aku haritu balikan ia speaker yg bulat damit tu. kira sama2 lah, aku ada, ia pun ada. banarnya aku malas pulang kan balikan tapi mamaku cakap "biar sama2." DUITKU AH!! aku okay lah saja, sian jua adiku kan.. kali speakernya rusak. speakerku pinjamnya. aku baik ni, okay, pinjam kajap saja.. DITAPAUNYA.. sudah dibaginya balik, rusak inda bebuunyi. palui. inda jua batah ia makai. baie. pasal ia, aku pun inda bspeaker.

sama jua mcm mouse tu. mousenya ada sudah, tapi kalau kan jalan, minjam mouse ku jua. mamaku ckp apa? "minjamkan tia.. adimu jua tu. jangan bekira sama adik ani. inda bisai." INDA BEKIRA CANA KAN LAGI? sama jua ceritanya. "putus oleh kawanku. inda sengaja." katanya!

tadi ia jalan, ani tidur arah kawannya. kataku, aku kan makai harddrive. dibawanya usb. aku tanya, mana usb. "entah. eh tebawa si jojo kali. masa ia memanyap2 dalam bilik." kali ku kata, "kali aku pakai apa ni?" ia kata, "ada kali usb spare arah drawer ku." sudah ku cuba, rusak ah. nada mau. kali ia kata, "entah, inda tah ku tau tu."

karang bali harddrive baru ah, ia jua makai tu! anu yg panuh gilabaie sama video jackass nya ani, baginya aku ni. yatah pasalnya aku banci jackass ni.

kan ditampar? kalau inda aku yg biru2 olehnya krg, mamaku salahkan aku kalau kami adibradi klaie. "kau yg tua, patutnya kau yg mengalah." apakan tu?!!! kalau inda atu ah, "andangnya tu, anak bungsu andang catu." AH? WHAT THE FUCK?

NAH KAU! SASAK TAH KU TU SUDAH. 

Revelations

Woke up in the morning today, what did I see? I saw a bottle saying come and drink me. So I think I drank it.
OH YEAH~!

Woke up in the morning today, What did I see? I saw some weed saying come and smoke me. So I think I smoked it
OH YEAH~! 

Rolled it up and sucked it!
OH YEAH~!

Woke up in the morning today, what did I see? I saw some coke saying come and sniff me, so I think I sniffed it! Opened up and I whiffed it!
FUCK YEAH~! 

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I just realised something (not totally, but a little bit) awful about meself.

I'm hopeless romantic. A fucking sap.

How did I come to realise it? Well, actually I didn't. It was pointed by none other than my Amali (I seriously do not know what to call him. He's not exactly a boyfriend, but he's close) last night.

See, Mali has read all my FF works and he is somewhat my other writer. He not only checks my grammars (not that I needed constant checking), but he's also helping me to better my story lines. Sometimes he gives me his ideas and tell me how to insert it to one plot, and then connect it to another without actually altering the story's universe. He's talented that way.

Anyway, last night, he was being random. I asked him about something personal and out of the blue, he just said
"You're a hopeless romantic, you know that right?"

I, of course denied it with everything I have. But he just proved me wrong.

You know how a writing depicts the writers? Well he used my works as his proofs.

My works usually revolve in these universe. A bad guy meets a girl, while still a bad guy to others, treats the girl differently.

1. A ruthless assassin, fell in love with a brave female commander while helping her in a mission to save the galaxy from annihilation.

2. An ill-mannered slave who usually shoot anyone who so much as irks him, becomes very gentle to his mistress.

3. A bad-ass vampire sheriff who would dismember anyone who talks back at him but patient to a barmaid/part-fairy who defies him everyday.

4. A vampire who cares about nothing but himself (and his progeny) in his thousand years of existence, becomes very possessive towards his human/part-fairy girlfriend.

5. A cruel leader's second in command fell in love with a woman who wants to kill the said leader.

And this one apparently, is so me: A quiet guy who talks to no one loves a girl who talks to everyone.

At the end, I was like,
"Awh fuck me. You're right."
As he always does.

Well, my defense was "I just want to feel special for once." True that. And Mali also stated that he noticed that guys who I've rejected is never a quiet one. They either have thousands female friends, and/or always hang out with their friends. Mali is included in the latter. While he doesn't have many female friends, he's always out somewhere with his friends.

Being a bit anti-social myself, I'm a sucker for introverts.

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The following context contains 18sx words.

Me: Me takut the guy I'm with inda dapat bangunkan 'atu' pasal inda cukup foreplay.. Penting jua BJ tu. :(
Mali: Ugggggggh. If he loves you, he'd have no problem getting 'it' up. Hell I'm almost hard just being around you. Why do you think I didn't want to meet you masa puasa?
Me: love me?
Mali: banar ah. panjang2 mali buat, atu saja yg ia dapat..
Me: THEEEEHEE~!