nonsense.

no notes to be memorized, no friends to talk to, no boyfriend to call, no new book to be evaluated. no pet society to amuse me. nothing.

though i am at liberty to watch tv til the plug burns of overheated, sleep at 2pm, wake up at 8, i still feel useless. sure this is a *world* paradise, but being in a place where there is no challenge AT ALL for a long time can be pretty tedious.

my life currently is simple like hell. wherever i go, i always have my little black book and my mighty pencil with me. in that book, i wrote everything that popped into my head at that very moment. like for example, when i came across new words, or when i met objects of complaint, i jot it all down. or if i just thought about new quotes. yeah i'm a bit philosophical these days. guess that "heartbroken made a philosopher" turns out to be true.. speaking of which, i'm not exactly heartbroken. it is really more to unrequitted-ish which no one is to blame. *stab myself*

point is, i am darn bored. don't tell me to hang out please. i am so not into that. pointlessly wandering around the mall is a waste of time. i rather sit in my bedroom for hours doodling in photoshop or figure out how c++ and .php work. what's there to see in the mall anyway? bunch of colorful-hairs packaged with hideous-outfits idiots who wants to "enjoy life" or pretend to be cool? nah, i've seen it. what i have to say about that? utterly despicable. poor them mothers who gave birth to these kids.

what, seriously, am i speaking? rubbish-y. what is happening to me? i am madly in love with someone who doesn't know my existence (uh, i am positive that he knew. he just too damn busy to care.), i speak nonsense and crappy english which i don't really care, became meaner and meaner each day and am not sure that "meaner" is even a word, all of the sudden all i've got is laptop, books, and my dvd collections.

kill me.

p/s: in need of new phone. i'm considering both touchscreen and QWERTY keypad. what do you think is better? i want that LG Arena. looks pretty.