Happy Birthday To Raihani Binti Md Rosli

29th march. 0930 am.
Got a phone call, informing that I can start coming to work tomorrow. So happy, I have a job ON MY 18th BIRTHDAY. then went to Miri.

29th March, 7pm
Got home. Feet was swollen like an elephant’s, ribs feel like breaking, back’s hurt, eyes feel like popping out.

29th march 1130pm
was planning to make a capi2 entry but as soon as I lay my body on the bed, fell asleep. Very nice sleep, got very nice dream, everything’s nice.

30th march, 12 am.
Confessing to xx, and he said that he has been secretly in love with me too. He tilted his head and we’re about to kiss. I close my eyes, then…….. BANG!!!!!!!




Opened my eyes. I was all alone in my room, my phone is ringing like crazy, messages coming continuously. The eff words coming out of my mouth, repeatedly.
I was like this:






Alaaaaaaaaa, sikit lagi tu!!!!! Kacau eh! anak sapa kan kacau ni!!! Shuwwweeeeeet!




These are the responsible parties for breaking my sweet dream. (and some unknown numbers.)

The effing caller: *******
The messagers:

1. afiq
2. didi a.k.a salwani
3. haji mohd faisal
4. azri
5. fizu
5. danny
7. mudmud a.k.a al-amin
8. surayani

The messages after these are not entertained, because I was busy forcing my eyes to sleep and hoping to resume the dream that I just abruptly left.
8. yayah
9. fuad

30th march, 0230 am
eyes not sleepy anymore although my back hurts like hell! Massaging my swollen feet. Again, I’m alone, so I just lay there and measuring the length of my beloved spiders’ web at my ceiling. I put my phone under my pillow because it still beep and beep. (I silence it.)

30th march 0340 am
I think I fall asleep at 0330am approx.

30th march 0554 am
In Fahrenheit’s concert, backstage, sitting with Aaron Yan. OMG he is shuaiiiii. The rest also shuai. But I’m more interested to aaron lah. Talking, hugging and smooching. All of em. Join their photo shoot. I was about to shoot a photo with aaron as a couple, got very nice make ups and everything’s ready. When the cameraman was on the brink of pushing the button………

BANG!

Thanks to Hajah Siti Norismah. She gave me a message! Again, the effing words. But this time, I don’t know why my eyes so heavy.

30th March 6 am
My mum entered my room. “ma, aku kan tidur jap, banguni aku pukul 8 lalu krg ah.. sama lau rajin, misscallkan urg yg bagi message tu. Lau rajin lahh.”

30th March 8 am
“bangun! Inda ko keraja?!”
“karang dulu.. jap gi.”
“bah mandi tarus.”

30th March 0930 am
“Ya Allah, inda ko jadi kah?”
“pukul berapakan ni?”
“pukul 10.”
I rushed to my bathroom, shower and everything. I was putting on my lens, I got a call.
“inda payah tah ko dtg hari ani. Ada urg ganti udah.”

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30th March 0340 pm
after finish writing this entry at 2pm, i slept. i think, "the annoyance is over and i could continue my life peacefully." BUT NO IT ISNT JUST YET! i was awaken by my brother, brutally, only to tell me there's women outside, wanted to meet me. EFF WORDSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
"why did my effing 18th years old birthday which is supposed to have effing BBQ and things, celebrated like My effing Super Sweet 16, would turn effing upside down?!!! EFFING STUPID LAR! stop waking me up already can?!"

anyway, that women was my ex's mum and his sis. i was outraged, you know i always have this attitude when someone waking me up. and i still mamai, don't know what to say, don't know what to do. i just say thanks and return to my house. WTF!! i think she must say like this: eh so rude, no shake hand ah. see her face, just wake up, so horrible. and her clothes, where got polite girls using that type of clothes. so skimpy! sleeveless and so short shorts!

OMG, i must have been labeled as bad-mannered. after this, i shall wear baju kurung and jubah at home, for fear that i have any unexpected visitors.

oh yeah,
at this moment, i really want to meet HAJI MD FAISAL who is sooooooooo effing GENIUS, sending his mother to give me the present. eff! eff!!!!!! anyway, thanks for the present and i have yet to open it. =D what's with the wrapping paper? no orange?! i hate pink... =p thank you.

T_T

You reckon, how many eff words coming out of my mouth.

Loads.

Feet like elephant, ribs broken, back hurts, eyes tired. Sleep, awaken, sleep, awaken, sleep, awaken, rushed to bathroom, then work cancel.

Thanks guys, this is the most unforgettable birthday I’ve ever had.




Seriously, thank you for remembering my birthday. Sorry for the eff words. And to these two guys, one is my penpal (considered as penpal ka?), and one is my beloved dearest mate.

Happy 18th Birthday To Nesh/Red.Selamat menyambut hari jadi yang ke-18.Buleh putarkan lagu? Hahahahaa!Lagu rah right side of my blog ah. Dengar tia!Nada hadiah ah. Aku bagi ko bintang saja di-langit. Semua ko punya tu.Kalau ko inda nampak aku, ko liat saja bulan. Ada tu mua ku. Mijin saja.Shuwheeeeeet! Assalamualaikum. Sayonara. Tc and Peace. ;)

I have thesis I need to complete, but I do this. thanks to you!

After 11.59 pm, the world will celebrate a birthday of superstar a girl named Raihani or her name when I first meet her, orenjiiro and better known as nes. It’s her 18th birthday, a year older and finally, she reached her legal age. It’s been 6 months since I added her MSN, and it’s been three months since I developed a strong affection towards her.

i bought a big teddy, but she doesn’t like it. wtf? It costs me effing $57, goddammit! All girls love teddy but her! I guess she must me some transsexual, she is a man. That is why. Anyway, I gave it to my sis. (because she doesn’t want to give me her address, hou ma fan! Do I look like a bad guy to you? I won’t come to your place lar please. I have important classes to attend.) anyway, happy birthday.

p/s: I’m mad, she promised to stay up and webcam, but she didn’t!

Flashback:
I miss my sisters. Years ago, we were celebrating our birthdays together. There are always cards. Not the one that we could buy in stores, the made it themselves. Now, everything has changed. Thanks to yayah, anyway. I miss them no matter wherever they are, whatever they do. I hope that they will not forget our moments together, even if they got new friends, which is bound to happen.

p/s: sorry Jeremy. Eh, where got promise.. I DID NOT lah. I said, “we see lah how.” :p

p/p/s: since this is my 18th, FOR GOD SAKE, i'm EIGHTEEN now, and reached my legal age ( i keep on saying that this day, *sigh*), i dream of having friends over, BBQ, parties, or family gathering. and which part of my dream come true you ask? NONE. my mother is working until ten, my father is enjoying himself in front of his laptop, my brother is locking himself in his bedroom, my aunties are working and not here, my friends? don't even bother to ask. there's not even chicken on fire. no smoke, NOTHING! they can't even take a day off to accompany me through the day. after this day, no one will ever care about me anymore. i'm growing older. imagine if my life stops at this day. maybe i'll die in my sleep, under my precious blanket. no one will care. i just rot under it until the smell comes out. then they will realized that i'm gone. ='(

forgive me if i'm being melodramatic. trust me, this is the suckiest effing day of my life. the most distressing day.

No Inspiration

You know what are artist fears the most?


NO INSPIRATION!

I have no inspiration.. I want to create a new skin, but I don’t know what to create. Oh God, this is not happening! i sat for hours in front of my computer with my beloved applications on, playing with Adobe PS, but i cannot think of anything.



anyway, i use GIMP, Adobe PS and Trellian Webpage to create a skin. i planned to try Amaya and buy Dreamweaver. Trellian is nice, GIMP is complicated and Adobe PS is just AWESOME.


tell me what skin should i make next?

if only Jeremy is here, he could tell me what theme i should do. too bad he's on vacation. =/ i miss his face. duh!

maybe i should make a Manchester United skin.

A derisory entry.

ini yg aku tak gemar ini... if you hate to read some vulgarities, just press the close button and come back next day. or not, i don't really care.

Manchester united KALAH

Sial jua man.utd ane,udah jua lwn liverpool kalah pas2 lwn fullham pn kalah jua.wahahaha.mana tia c.ronaldo cocksucker atu n rooney dickhead yg fan man utd banga2kn ah?hahahaha mengamah ja man.utd ani!! Loser. .untuk peminat man.utd jgn kn bg alasan man.utd kalah pasal drg bg peluang ok hahahah.alasan inda munasabah itu:)

Seriously, do you still need a translation for this?


Thanks to the spammer, I came across this site.. i don't like to spam. i want to defame you without keeping my true identity a secret. because spammers are cowards. they spam without their true identity.

okay, back to the point. the entry is about a preposterous comment from a dim-witted guy. I’m not really an extremist of Manchester United but, I do support them. Since he triggered my rage by saying “c ronaldo cocksucker”, here I go, blasting him back.

First of all, since you’re so idiot, I want to disclose the true meaning of LOSER. According to New Oxford Dictionary, LOSER is someone who is NEVER successful. According to Wiki, LOSER is someone who tried so hard but NEVER succeeds. According to…. Wooops, nevermind. You’re too stupid to understand anyway.

We don’t give suchlike dumb excuses, okay? We have won loads of major honors, the 2 or three times defeat won’t bother us much. I just sympathize with those clubs who tried so hard, I mean, yeah, SO HARD to defeat the United. They even see United as a great challenger. The ratio of United losing is smaller than (insert club name, preferably the one you support). What say you? Can you tell who the real loser is?


Oh FUCK! I forgot how stupid you are. The possibility of you to understand this entry is so small. I have to repeat what I have started all over again, in MALAY.

Kenapa ko suka sangat United kalah? Is it that hard to defeat them? hohoho I knew it. macam JARANG kan United kalah? So it’s a phenomenon. Well, read this: SO WHAT? sekalinyaaaaaaaaaaaaa? Bukan kau yg main punnnnn. Ko sibuk2 kenapa? Bukan kau yg pegang piala atu pun… kalah manang durang, bukan kau yg kana bayar. Cocksucker? Dickhead? Please lah! Really? Atu saja yg ko tau? Lame lai.. They play durang main lagi steady wah dari kau! Tantu jua United banggakan durang. NAMANYA STEADY! since ramai urg minat United, ko saja kan minta perhatian kaaan, membuat post mcm atu… woohoo. Pathetic! ko mau urg flame kau ka? Ko mau blogmu famous just pasal one entry? Aku inda pulang ada masalah dengan kau tapi tolong jaga perasaan org. hal2 yg sensitive ani, keep it to yourself wah saja. Paham ko kah? Ganya manang beberapa kali, atu pun kan dibanggakan. Sadang jua.. ganya United kalah dua tiga kali, atu pun diucap loser. Siapa nah yg loser? Siaaaapa nah? Kira sendiri. Kalau kau inda cakap pasal ronaldo, inda wah ku marah ni.. malas tah ku kan gagau.. ko ucap apa ka, ko ucap apa kahhhhhhh, skati mu lah. ani ko sabut lagi ronaldo. FUCK YOU. MACAM TAH IA SAJA YG MAIN. United inda bergantung arah ia saja kali ah. Ia main yg terbaik saja. Urg lain yg kata ia steady. sampai ia kana guard. Sekaaaalor. Kenapakan excuse kami yg durang bagi peluang? Mun banar cana? Sian jua kamu…… kami bagi peluang, baru kamu manang. Lau inda bagi, inda manang. Sian eh…… sapa nah loserrrr???? Malas tah ku kan ceriitaaaa. BIAR TIA WAH DRG KALAH KA, MANANG KAH, INDA USAH GAGAU. Damn kau ni.

Astaghfirullah…… message from me: bola itu bulat. Haha apakan.. inda pulang ku marah, ganya jangan diucap bah ronaldo. ayangku bah tu. XD!!!!!!

Hotel 626

yesterday i was introduced to a new fucking game. its Hotel626. i want to recommend this game to everyone particularly to my mate. if you are not interested, please, for my sake, click the website.. here. i'm not saying its fun. well, you see for yourself. you tell me.

and, remember, the website will only open between 6 pm to 6am.


to AREEF, FYZA, and MYZAH. and HAFIZ (if you read this).

please play. please?????? then tell me about it, okay?

*theeee heee heee* evil laugh.

Changing and Changing.

I CHANGED MY SKIN AGAIN!

do you like it?

but there's problems.

Wah lao!!! How come my page took like eternity to load? Why? Is it because I use too many pictures, or script, or is it because that daxmn Meta filter? Or is it because my page is tooooo cute? hahahaha. Truthfully speaking, I don’t know. I think that Meta filter scripts are cool. But then I tried viewing my page using Mozilla, the Meta filters aren't working! I also aware that my visitor column is apparently ON THE RIGHT-HANDSIDE. Oei, I coded it on the left, stupid.

-_-"

Never mind. My page is cute. Got ribbons everywhere. i love my page. wohoooo... how did I do that? How did I transform my page from AVERAGE cute (yes, average. I won't say my codes, my designs, are TOTALLY ugly.) to an ASTONISHINGLY cute?

Simple answer: because I am a genius. XD

Joking. I did not write the code in just one night, okay? I spent 2 days to sketch the codes, and then make it tidy, spent hours designing the buttons and all the images, and hours webcaming with JEREMY. Fortunately, it’s expensive to call here. Otherwise Jeremy would call like, every night!

Okay, enough with the crap. I’m tired, my hands feel like no hands (if only you can understand..), and my butt became flat. I want to take some rest. BUT before I switch off my laptop (which is never going to happen because I used to leave it on all the time), I want to upload a picture. This cute creature looks like my mate. Cute! (yeah, every bizarre creatures look like him to me. cute. I love bizarre mutated creatures.)

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the right one is my pet, the well-known pet in the world, mr. reefious. i just LOOOVE the eyes. cute! and if you wonder what is that creature on the left, its Bugsy. its a Guinea Pig celebrity, mind you! its real name, something with Harr lah. i forgot. but its name initiated with letter H, if i'm not mistaken. it acted in Bedtime Stories, with Adam Sandler, my imaginary husband. Mr Bugsy is mr Reefious's idol. he wanted to look like it, so he went through plastic surgery which costs $1000. i'm broke. T_T